Orbs's blog about friendships got me thinking.
I have friends but only a few that I feel truly close to, and even they don't know everything about me.
In fact, I only have 2 friends and my hubby that know pretty much everything about me.
When our youngest was in 2nd or 3rd grade, she experienced severe headaches, and we could not find the root cause of the problem. We had her thru so many tests, including psychological, where even the hubby and myself had to answer questionnaires.
His came back that he's a realist. Mine came back that I had a Pollyanna complex. Seriously??
The questions were worded far more ominously than I felt was warranted, so I answered accordingly.
No, I do not see everything positively, but I refuse to see everything negatively and without hope.
I did not feel that it understood me at all.
Orbs' friend blog made me question exactly how I do define it and even define myself.
Recent events have caused us to question who we are here, what we want, what we want to be, how we want to connect and stay connected. It made me actually feel like I hadn't a clue. I don't like change. I don't like feeling unsettled. It shakes me and makes me uneasy.
I am not ready to disconnect yet. I don't know what our future here looks like but I want to still see you all. This is one anchor that keeps me steady, and I need it.