Friday, October 19, 2012

Has anyone ever walked up to you and asked, “Are you Huck Finn?” “Uhhh, say what?” This was the issue I faced this morning. I haven't posted as Huck in a very long time and while I hadn’t forgotten you guys, I needed to step back from how radical I was becoming in the Con/Lib wars. I have another persona, actually a different handle with the same attitudes and style and if a computer were used, it might find the similarities of style and structure. Still, I was posting and fighting too many wars. This Blogshere is a nice rational one and doesn’t need soldiers of reason and doesn’t need a counter to rabid conservatism (or rabid Liberalism). Still, I’ve missed you guys. So there I was, sitting in this chair of inquiry, the torturer had her tools of choice, and asked, “Are you?” As I cringed from the gleam of her probe, I slowly nodded my head and said, “Yes.” You know, when it comes to dentists, I’ll admit to anything. That bright light glaring in your eyes, the fear of, “This won’t hurt a bit,” and the knowledge one little slip will put you to the Moon, make you want to be truthful and hope that you say the right thing. She looked at me and exclaimed, “Well where have you been?” “Uhh, say what?” Well lets see guys, I’ve been dying, then didn’t die (again). When it comes to dying, and not dying, I got it covered better than a troop of cats. Looking back I don’t remember if I told about the double bypass at the Hospital from Hell (St. Mary’s) which is a true story of incompetent mayhem, the story of the Pacemaker/defib, the story of the left ventricle blood clot, and for sure not the story of a rogue doctor trying to put me in a nursing home due to my progressive nerve disorder. If anything will make a guy crawl in a hole and bang the lid down tight, it is the fear of involuntary Nursing Homes. Don’t make waves, don’t draw attention, run away, run away. I have been writing now and then though. Always have that need to let the BS drip from my fingers. I just never thought I might actually have a fan out there. That’s the funny thing. I’ve conversed with you guys, and I jaw with other bloggers elsewhere, have heard there are far more lurkers than posters at any site, but never really thought a Lurker would one day approach me and say, “Get to work! We miss you.” Ya know, I once wrote for a prestigious national magazine and discovered, I HATE fame. Yeah, that’s just silly. Everyone wants to be the center of attention, don’t they? Well, no. Not everyone. I’m a loner with a small group of tight friends, and when people I never saw before started coming up and clapping me on the back and exclaiming, “Hey Bro!” or “Hey Huck!” (not my pen name) like I was a long lost brother took me back. That’s what happens when you start to become famous, and my insecurities clamped down hard. Who, me insecure? I must be, because I sure didn’t like it. For me, the thing about being a biker is the brotherhood and knowing where you stand among your peers. You break bread with them, drink a beer with them, smoke that joint with them and pound down the miles, and in the end, you know they have your back because you have theirs. Having a nameless face slap you on the back and act like you just pounded down a thousand miles at their side seemed to always spook me. I understand now how their familiarity grew as they read my work, and might even be able to endure that sort of hero worship now, even though I know I‘m no hero. Hell, I’m the guy that slipped here and in a fit of anger spewed a very vulgar diatribe at the city. That diatribe is why I faded. Even though I had apologized, I felt the cooling and knew I needed to take a vacation until the anger at my mistake wore down with time. I faded, and time marched on. So here I am again. I have stories, and have lived a bit more life. Maybe I can keep from saying peepee kaka words and upsetting everyone again. No one here is anyone I wish to upset. Give me a few days to dig in my files. I’m sure I have something someone will like to read and not take too much offense at. We’ll see.

15 comments:

Huck Finn said...

Well what the heck! Where did the paragraphs go?

Toad said...

Holy Shit, It's Huck Finn. I will read your story now, I am just glad to see you here again.

Huck Finn said...

had to use html to make the paragraphs. Will have to figure all this out again.

Toad said...

Huck? What a story, I look forward to your stories. Your story Is interesting to me, because I recently discovered that really, ALL of my REAL friends, none of whom I have ever seen are the people on this site. It's just amazing. Welcome back.

Anonymous said...

Tom Sawyer is also glad to see you back. Did the addition of BLB help you with your return? Rumor is that she is hot, we all already know she is nuts, we will just have to see at one of the reunions.

OKIE said...

Welcome back Huck. It's nice to read your words again.

Tender Heart Bear said...

Welcome back Huck. I like to read your stories on here. I am just glad you are alright!

legal stranger said...

Hi Huck, looks like plenty of JTIrr's are happy to see you back. Perhaps you could be the prodigal son of JTIrr? Orbs has continued to press for public servants and accountability, and has continued to fight and expose public serpents. One should never give up on a righteous fight.

On another topic, I see that Kristen Zambo at the Racine Journal Times has done a little better story of the up skirting/voyeurism case at the Waterford Pick/n/Save by Matthew J. Stegall. The judge found probable cause to continue the case to trial. Sometimes justice appears to be administered in Racine County.
Racine County District Attorney Rich Chiapete has proven himself to be a man of his word. Mr. Chiapete has a better handle of justice than his predecessor, I will support his reelection.
Pleasant dreams to all readers and have a great weekend .... ........

OrbsCorbs said...

Hey, Huck. So very glad to hear from you. We've missed you.

Wow, I've never been recognized in public. Did the dentist know you from posting here or at the Journal Times?

Google updated everything since you left. As soon as you learn one system, they plug in a different one. You should catch up fine.

Sorry to hear about your ongoing physical trials. We worried.

I'm nowhere near as active as I once was in ranting online about injustice. As you know, it gets to the point that it's poisonous to yourself.

drewzepmeister said...

Nice to see ya back, Huck!

Huck Finn said...

Thanks for the warm words guys. She knew me from here, and she is a very good dentist. There is a reason N____ ___ds DDS has five stars in the on line dentist review. Not because she knows me. Because she is that good. The first time I went to her many years ago, I went because she advertised "Gentle Dentistry" in the yellow pages. When you have an overwhelming phobia of dentists, you look for one that won't play into them. Somehow when I saw the ad, I read, "Painless Dentistry." Ha! She looked me in the eye and said, "Huck, there is no such thing as painless dentistry, but I try." She did try, and every time I jumped, she'd stop and give me a moment. After endless stops and starts, I told her just do it. I realize I'm being a baby and if we don't bull on ahead, we'll never finish. She is good, and she is gentle, and if I can send any biz her way, I will. I really don't want to out her so didn't give much info. If you want to know where to go, PM me. I highly recommend her.

lizardmom said...

Huck, it made my night seeing you here again. Now I know worrying about you was with good reason, so glad you're doing ok now.
I've missed you very much as has the rest of the gang.
I really need to find a dentist, as I am phobic too and the last one really made me feel like snail slime...
would love a recommendation.
Again, welcome home again!!!

kkdither said...

Welcome home, huck! We missed you and hoped we'd see you back. All that is left to say is, what the hell took you so long? ;>

BL Basketcase said...

Welcome back Huck...
I am new to this site... the more the merrier. We all need to be merrier. It is a release from the
reality of daily living. Sounds to me like you have been thru lots with your health lately. Sounds like your are back on the upswing.

Keep up with the cardiac rehab that I am sure you have already have done. The risk of additional cardiac ischemia is greatly reduced. When you exercise, collateral circulation to the myocardium is then formed. The cardiac muscle is further perfused
and risk is greatly lowered of further damage.

Anonymous... thanks for saying I'm hot, but crazy. Hugs to you, too.
:P

SER said...

Good to hear from ya Huckleberry Finnman